Where and what I am living.

Another's sacrifice changed me completely.

I don't really understand what it all means.

Transformed, metamorphosized...

That is what I MUST focus on!

I HAVE already died!

A dead being does not hold resentment or get hurt,

because it has ALREADY died!

The pains of this world MUST be nothing to me!

The reality of this timed place must NOT be in my horizon!

My eyes NEED to be fixed on another reality, on an eternal existance, on the metamorphized being I have become!

I AM a changed creation, with NEW life!

The lies hurled at me, the friends whom have betrayed me, whom I don't want to reign in my love from, the rejection from churches, the bloody fire that makes my soul scream as it burns away the carcuss of my old being, have no power.

It only matters that I respond in love, yet with wisdom, guarding my heart, yet giving my compassion and mercy, not holding grudges, not speaking abuses, not acting in harm in any way, just letting truth flow, knowing that the one who sacrifed his life for me knows me and embraces all of me, letting healing manifest in my mind, body, soul and spirit, focusing on the promise of a better place, a more real life, which is already where and what I am really living.